Wow. So I've been pretty terrible at updating this blog. I feel like the weeks fly by and before I know it we're on to the next speaker. So here is my attempt to sum up the journey so far...
Since last writing we've had some really great, life-changing speakers. Between Loren and Darlene Cunningham, Andy Byrd, Danny Lehmann, Brian Brennt and Lou Engle, my heart has been stretched, freed, ravished, and met in new, incredible ways. Each speaker has brought new life to this christian walk I've been a part of for several years. Covering topics ranging from giving up rights to seeing a worldwide revival and everything in-between, I have been challenged in almost every part of my heart and pushed to create a lifestyle where radical is normal.
Aside from all the amazing speakers God has been doing a mighty work in my heart. Revealing to me that a new season was about to start, I at least had some warning as to what was about to happen, unfortunately I didn't connect the dots until I was in the midst of the storm. Last Monday was when I first recognize that God was on the move and it was gonna be a painful, deep work. Thankfully the joy came in the morning... well about 2 mornings later. But it was AWESOME and much needed. I felt as though God was beginning to take out all the "bad", those parts of my personality and parts of my heart that I held on to because I believe that was just who I was. As each issue got addressed I was left feeling empty and alone, pushed to my limit and sick of whatever God had started in my life. Thankfully, God is good, so good and He doesn't just leave us void. Its been over the past week that I've come into new revelations of God's love and His JOY!
Joy is not happiness. Happiness is fleeting. It relies on circumstance and is nothing more than a feel good emotion. But Joy.... Joy is deep. Its unshakable. It wells up and bursts forth saying "But I KNOW God is Good. I KNOW God is worth it. I KNOW God loves me. And I can't stop smiling and laughing because even in my circumstance new revelations of His Joy are overwhelming me!"
I have a lot of growing yet to do but God is just so good. I've found the meaning of life and thats just to Love God and Love people. Thats it! How freeing! Man... I have to live my life doing the simple. I have to spend my life loving and in that love sharing God's love for the world. The fire inside of me for the nations is beginning to burn hotter then I've ever felt it and its the most amazing feeling.
Thank you Jesus for choosing to use ME!
