14 hours and counting.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." -2 Corinthians 4:16-18

These past 3 months have been everything I came here desiring and so much more. God has met me, shaken me, broken me, and rebuilt me only to break me again. In fact, brokenness has become a daily occurrence with words like "breakthrough" and "freedom" being spoken as the light at the end of the tunnel. No struggle has gone unmet and no hurt has been left simmering in my heart. God has spoken so clearly to my heart, never leaving me to wonder whether He cared. The nearness of the Lord has become even more real to me, yet my mind still cannot grasp the concept that the Creator of the Universe cares to come and speak so tenderly to my heart. Throughout every broken moment, every tear, every distracted worship time God has shown His abundant Love, Grace, and Joy! Never has my walk with the Lord become so personal and so real. Yes, I still have a long way to go but God has revealed to me just how excited He is to take this journey with me! I wish I could tell of each life changing moment I've had here.. But that would be impossible. Though there were many big, Jesus productions filled with dancing, singing, laughing, shouting, crying, etc... It was in the secret place with the Lord that He showed Himself to me in a new, beautiful way :) I came to the Awaken DTS hoping for a change and all I can say is my heart has truly been AWAKENED. Awakened to the reality of God and the fullness of all He has for me!

Now it is time for my outreach! Traveling is in my blood and I believe it is becoming even more clear to me that I will be doing it for many more years to come... But this time it's different. This time I am all packed and physically ready to go, but something is different. My heart is heavy. I cannot pinpoint the reason for my tears but God is really showing me how depend I Must be on Him and the time I have with Him! I was never meant to do this alone and the busyness of this time should never come between me and the whole purpose for this trip, Jesus! It is in these moments when God's grace is so good to me, He is SO patient and never gets tired of walking me through the same lessons over And over again. As I lay in our prayer room and write this blog, the Holy Spirit is doing a work in my heart and bring a peace and strength I am going to need over the next 72 hours!

Thank you, Lord for Your goodness over these past 3 months and Thank You for all You're going to do in the coming months!

I love you all who are reading this post. My family and Friends have really stepped it up over this time and blessed me! I will be forever grateful! I will try to blog when I can in Nepal, hopefully I'll be better at it than I was here! Ha!

Please continue to pray for me, my team, and the amazing country of Nepal! Our team site is awakennepal.com so go there too for updates!

LOVE!