Hey guys! First off, I just want to say I am so sorry I suck at keeping everyone updated! I truly need to start blogging more and sharing all the crazy things God is doing here. So yeah, I'm sorry and will try my best to get better at the updating!
Man, this past month has been crazy. As many of you know, I am on the Leadership Track in Kona, Hawaii, hanging out while I love Jesus and catch vision for the future. Honestly coming here I had no idea what the heck I was getting myself into and honestly i think that has almost helped me. For too long I've spend time being disappointed because things didn't meet my "expectations." So when I came here I was so opened and ready for God to do whatever He wanted. The schedule is pretty dang busy. So much so that I was beginning to think it was a little much after the first week. Between spending 13 required hours in the prayer room a week, memorizing the sermon on the mount, reading a different book every couple weeks, and work from 9-11:30 every morning at the farm on campus..... I honestly was EXHAUSTED in the beginning and wondering what the line between servanthood and being overworked was. I knew I had come here to serve and learn what it was like to be a servant leader, but I truly felt like the schedule was just a bit ridiculous! However, as days passed I started to step back and say "wait a minute, Jenn.... you asked God to teach you want it was like to serve, and here you are, with your hand on the plow, digging those deep wells of servanthood." I had this list before I came of all the things I wanted to learn and grow in through serving the base and when the work I was doing failed to line up with my list I jumped right back to complaining and feeling like it was all pointless. I quickly learned in the first 2 weeks that God's list of what I was going to learn in this time and my list were Very different. At first, that sucked to accept but now it is just so good! Needless to say, it has been a pretty busy month but the Lord has given SO much grace to me in this time. Though I want to crash every day about 1 o'clock there is the grace to get my butt up and make it to the prayer room, not only because its required but because I know Jesus will meet me in those times. I now appreciate the schedule laid out in the Leadership Track. I know that it has given me the opportunity to serve, intercede, worship, learn & build relationships in a way that I would have never done on my own.
Apart from all the hands on work that I have been doing, God has been doing some awesome things in my life lately. I can say now, for the first time in months, that I am at an amazing place in life! There is a deep joy, a deep peace, a deep contentment that carries me through each day. I am loving the place God has me. I'm loving the condition that my heart is in. I'm Loving the people I'm running with. Every day God is meeting me in a new and fresh way. I seriously CAN'T GET ENOUGH. I will say, however, that this time has definitely come with its far share of "challenges." Its like right when you think you're doing great, God points out another thing in your heart. There have been weekly, Daily struggles, things that come up or issues I don't want to walk through, but for the first time in my Life no matter what comes or what things I have to conquer, my heart continues to cry out "Lord, You are Good! and I love You! Lord, You are GOOD and I love You!" For the first time I know that I know that I know that God is good, He always is and always will be and its a joy to walk through the hard things. Its a joy to go to the deep issues. Its a Joy because I am being prepared for battle. I am being prepared to be sent out in the nations and I can no longer afford to wallow in my own crap while the people of the world die without hearing the name of Jesus. Point blank. Enough is enough.
On another exciting note, since being here that have been SO many opportunities thrown my way for this year. I am not planning on staffing the DTS coming up this summer here in Kona, so I have really just been open to whatever doors God opens up. For one, I know that I am not suppose to commit to anything until this module of the Leadership Track is up in June, but I AM beginning to have some serious dream sessions with Jesus. The possibilities of this year get me STOKED! I will most likely stay on the track here and still be involved in the Awaken DTS to some degree. Awaken is my family and I just want to be running with them in some capacity! I know that I'll be going home at the end of October for the birth of my first niece/nephew!! However, the rest is up in the air. Everything honestly rides on 2 things: 1)A clear word from the Lord and 2)Finances! I believe that wherever God wants me the money will be provided, but looking forward right now I literally have NO clue how! haha! I really want to make it back to the main land for my good friends wedding at the end of July and to see my sister all cute and pregnant! I will be writing more on the possibilities of the rest of this year as God says yes and I can begin to prepare but until then.... I am Loving where I am at!!
Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me and staying updated on my whereabouts... I'm kind of all over the place but I'm seriously Loving it right now!
If you would like to help out financially through monthly support or a onetime gift please click the link at the top of the page! If you would like to send a check or a letter or a box or...... anything else awesome my address here is: 75-5851 Kuakini Highway #87, Kailua-Kona, HI 96740-2199, USA
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